“Semblance” Lyrics

1 – IF

If I were a gun, you’d be the target,
If I were a knife, I’d throw myself at you,
But alas I’m me, and all I can do is hurt myself.

If I were the ground, you’d be the fault-line
If I were the sky, I’d fall down, crushing you,
But alas I’m me, and all I can do is crush myself.

And if you were a man, I’d strike you down,
If you were human, I’d strangle you to death,
But alas I’m me, and it’s all I can do to save myself.

I would take you down, through rock and stone.
I would break your hold wide open

But alas I’m me, and it’s all I can do to save myself.
But alas I’m me, and it’s all I can do to save myself.


2 – I Fear

There was a time when I’d follow,
There was a time when I’d propose,
Those were the days wherein I shone,
But I’ll never be that man again.
There was a day when I’d resent,
Revelling in my own decent,
Those were the days when I knew myself,
You’ll not do this to me again.

I seek things I no longer show,
I speak of things that you don’t understand
And I dread to see the day when you are made to feel the way I do.

And the reason lies, behind your eyes,
That I fear, that I fear.
And the reason lies, behind your eyes,
And I fear, that I fear.
There was a time when I’d follow,
There was a time when I’d propose,
Those were the days wherein I shone,
But I’ll never be that man again.


3 – Make Myself

Can I make myself cleaner? Cleaner than everyone.
Couldn’t be any clearer? How rotten I’ve become.

Once upon a time, wrote a story, all about a life less ordinary.
Wanted to expose a truth, no wonder that I found myself
Living out a life less ordinary,
Hear me when I say that you’re a long time dead,
Until your death is reassuringly complete,
But indiscrete and is a way that’s kinda weird, obsolete.
Now you’re ready to grasp your own eternity,
Ready to adopt the newer rules and act accordingly.

Once I had a name, and that name meant oh so much to oh so few,
S o very few, but still I knew of its importance to them all.
But now these things have changed, and I’ve resorted to a face,
A bitter face, condemning all who cannot see what I’ve become.
Was a selfish act, but who are we, if we cannot believe in our own selves,
Or even anything which helps us all believe.
Only then can you grasp your own eternity,
Ready to adopt a bitter face and fuck conformity.

When I breathe, I breathe more deeply than you breathe.
And when I see, I see far further than you see.
And when I run, I run much faster than you can.
And when I’m still, I am more still than you can be.

Can I make myself cleaner?
Couldn’t be any clearer.
Can I make myself cleaner?


4. My Friend

It’s not, what it should have been my friend.
Why can’t, I get used to it my friend?
And I knew then, once your door had closed, I’d never fall asleep.
With you in my arms, to awake and see your face again.

And I’ll remember you sitting there,
Your perfect eyes and long dark hair.
Waiting for you to ask,
Why i’m still around.

Its not, what it could have been my friend.
And I’m afraid I’ve broken things that I can’t mend.

But I’ll be damned, if I’ll let you take one step outside my life.
Yeah I’ll be damned, if I’ll let this friendship waste away.

Cos I’ll remember you sitting there,
Your perfect eyes and long dark hair.
And I’ll not be afraid,
If you’re still around.


5. Semblance

Expressions a waste if you can’t seem to make any sound,
I’m lying awake, but I’m buried six feet under ground.
Lifting dead weight in an effort to make myself move,
Screaming in silence ‘Oh what am I trying to prove?’

Pray for a day when these chains will be gently unwound,
Forever below cos I know that I’ll never be found.
I’ve retained some semblance of life though I’ll never know how,
No place in heaven my prayers are no longer allowed.

I hear the religious amongst you confound and condemn,
By your own definition of righteousness I define hell.
You’ll never amount to what you claim to be in the end,
You’re nothing but men amongst boys and but boys amongst men.

Its come to that crucial point where I just don’t give a damn,
Content to be humane and content to remain what I am.
So I banish you fools from my head now I’m out of your hands,
Far too late, but upon my horizons I’m going to stand.
Going to stand.


6. The Prevailing Wind

Prevent ill thoughts of days gone by,
Then convince your own mind not to make yourself louder.
Louder and louder again.

With wrongs undone you’re pacified,
Now be your own inspiration to realise you’re older,
Older and older again.

Reveal the things which keep you here,
Then find a good reason to take yourself further,
Further and further away.

Conform to the prevailing wind,
But resist the temptation to bowl yourself over,
Over and over again.

Cos one day you will see,
Yes I’m sure You will see.
And one day you will be,
Yes I’m sure one day you will be.

So conform to the prevailing wind,
But resist the temptation to bowl yourself over,
Over and over again.
Then reveal the things which keep you here,
And find a good reason to take yourself further,
Further, and further away.


7. My God

I left my life on hold for you my god,
And now look where I’ve ended up.
I can’t believe that you’d have wished for this,
Are all you intentions this fucked up?

To lead a life I’ve found you need a life,
So you can screw religion yeah.
But I’ll keep your ideals in my mind,
While I find my own yeah.

I’ve held my breath ’til close to death my god,
And it was never good enough.
How you condone self harm I’ll never know,
At first you pushed and then you shoved.

You maintain lives while you sharpen knives,
Purely to bleed our souls yeah.
But I’ll keep your ideals in my mind,
While I bleed my own yeah.

And you can go your own way,
And take with you my insecurities.
Cos now I’ve found my own place,
Your ideals are just no use to me.

Yeah you can go your own way,
And take with you your inadequacy.
I’m not afraid to look you in the face,
Because my god you can no longer be.


8. She Leaves the Light On

She leaves the light on in her room,
I never like to knock in case she’s sleeping.
For in her dreams, I creep inside and lay beside,
The spirit that I’d die for.
This dream grew tall but now it’s felled,
Taken away from us though I think it’s just as well.
Cos I’m, growing old, though time stands still,
More tired every day and it’ll carry on until,

I see,
Until I feel.
Until I know,
Until I’ve reached her.

I’ve heard them say it’s not like you,
But I was never what those people thought they knew.
The things I feared would have now come true,
Yet all the eyes around will be looking down on you.
I found my heaven in your eyes,
Felt content inside though I wish you’d realised.
My God helps those who help themselves,
But now the worst has come and I’m just an empty shell.

Cos I see,
Cos I feel.
Cos I know,
Cos I’ve reached you.
Cos I see,
Cos I feel.
Cos I know,
Cos I’ve reached you.


9. Unconscious

I found my very own Achilles heal, and through the years,
I’ve become addicted to my Nemeses.
To my mind my discipline is kinda weak, yet reluctantly,
I’ve taken possession of my tortured soul.

Witness my dreams as they’re laid to rest,
(If only I could stop time)
Still having nightmares I can’t comprehend.
(Make this dimension mine)

In hindsight I can see, your reasoning, but I could not prevent,
You becoming a martyr to your deficit.
In my eyes, we lacked desire, I can see it now, but I couldn’t then.
So close the box ‘cos all the hope’s expired.

Witness my dreams as they’re laid to rest,
(If only I could stop time)
Still having nightmares I can’t comprehend.
(Make this dimension mine)

Took me forever just to reach this place where I’m unconscious.
Despise the fear and despite this I’m dreading waking up.
Took me forever just to reach this place where I’m unconscious,
(Witness my dreams as they’re laid to rest)
Despise the fear and despite this I’m dreading waking up.
(Still having nightmares I can’t comprehend)

If only I….
If only I could stop time.
If only I….
If only I could stop time.

Make this dimension mine.


10. Trapped Man’s Story

The young man sitting in the armchair knows no-ones gonna go there.
Trapped inside longing for the girl with the dark hair.
In his padded wall asylum,
Locked away wishing she would come and rescue him.
I wish she’d rescue him.

His old life ended long ago still he never gave up searching.
Buried alive by his only method of escaping.
Thought he’d found the simple answer.
In this far away place where he could deal with anything
Whilst he lost everything.

Frustrated and alone he’d sing,
Clutching his knees to his chin.
Free for once, f ree to dream aloud of what he wants more than anything.

I was that man sat there in that room who thought nobody would go there.
Only pacified by memories of the girl with the dark hair.
In my desolate confinement, I lost track of the person that I used to be.
And all that mattered to me.

Frustrated and alone I’d sing, clutching my knees to my chin,
Free for once, free to dream aloud of what I wanted more than anything.